Que lindo es arreglar las cosas <3.

Maybe I'll be thin someday :/.

Mother do you think they'll drop the bomb?
Mother do you think they'll like this song?
Mother do you think they'll try to break my balls?

Oooh, ahh

Mother should I build the wall?

Mother should I run for President?

Mother should I trust the government?

Mother will they put me in the firing mine?

Oooh ahh, 

Is it just a waste of time?

Hush now baby, baby, don't you cry.

Mama's gonna make all your nightmares come true.

Mama's gonna put all her fears into you.

Mama's gonna keep you right here under her wing.

She won't let you fly, but she might let you sing.

Mama's gonna keep baby cozy and warm.

Ooooh baby, ooooh baby, oooooh baby,

Of course mama's gonna help build the wall.

Mother do you think she's good enough, for me?

Mother do you think she's dangerous, to me?

Mother will she tear your little boy apart?

Ooooh ah,

Mother will she break my heart?

Hush now baby, baby don't you cry.

Mama's gonna check out all your girlfriends for you.

Mama won't let anyone dirty get through.

Mama's gonna wait up until you get in.

Mama will always find out where you've been.

Mama's gonna keep baby healthy and clean.

Ooooh baby, oooh baby, oooh baby,

You'll allways be baby to me.

Mother, did it need to be so high?

I can't understand why after all I've done, all the sacrifice I did to be stable with my mind, all the changes I've made with myself, with the part that was wrong with me, just to be in peace with me and other people, I CAN'T UNDERSTAND WHY PEOPLE KEEP WANTING ME TO BE LIKE THAT. I mean, not directly but they make me suffer, treat me bad, and I don't do NOTHING to them. I think I don't deserve it, or do I?
I mean, if you love me like you say and you don't want to lose me, treat me right, I don't ask anything else. If I talk to you allways right, trying to be nice and patient, can't you do the same? All I want is the treat between us to be equal, all I want is this to work. 
I'm being as patient as I can, but everything has its limit. And it's not that I don't want to deal with all the things that you say or the way you react to things, I just CAN'T, is too much pressure for one person. And I don't want to lose you, really, is that why I don't just simply say: "Fuck you!", and finish with everything, is because I love you. But I can't let you hurt me because of whatever is happening in your mind, is just not fair. I would love to not feel nothing when you say, act or do whatever that affects me, and just don't care, but I can't.
Oh my gosh, I love you so much. I need you to put your mind in order and be good to me, that's all.

I've had it with distant double vision
My hand swollen, I can't keep holding on
My heart sinking and stuck in deadly rhythm
I can't fake it, I can't, can't keep brushing off

Love, love is dangerous
Love, love is so dangerous

I'm back at it, I just don't seem to listen
I see your lip,s I just can't hear the sound
It's all static just like my television
The skills sharpen her eyes caught through the clouds

It makes me sick that people say that you're a selfish person and that you think only about yourself when you try to please them EVERY FUCKING TIME, and they don't even think, EVEN, in the things you would like to do, to receibe as response, EVEN IN THE THINGS YOU LIKE, nothing, nothing. It's fucking annoying.

Give yourself to me
For only then you will see
For I am the skies up above
Beneath and everything in between
These oceans which harbor your sadness
These rivers which carry your pain
Give yourself to me
For only then you will see
You will see

Give yourself to me

I was here before the beginning
I'll be here after the end
Search yourself, you'll believe
For only then you will see
You will see

Give yourself to me

Today I feel cold, like if I was dead.

I don't know why everytime I fall I can't get out of my mind the thought of making myself bleed, hurting me till I can't feel nothing else but phisycal pain. I know it's not right, but I can't get it out, the demons are free, and I don't want that.
The only solution to this is not feeling bad, but I can't if people close to me keep puhing me and stabbing my soul, I need them to help me be, I need my peace, please, I never did anything wrong on prupose and everytime I apologize and explain the why of my acts, so please, don't confuse me.
Sometimes when everything goes right I think: "God, life's good", but then when I fall, I can't understand anything, I can't... ABSOLUTELY NOTHING, I feel incapable of everything, I paralize and my mind can't think in anything but that, in the bullshit the world is and sometimes I start thinking if anyone even loves me, if is that a fantasie of mine or what. I feel like I was bring to this world just to be an useless maggot god for nothing else than being a piece of shit. I don't know, something's wrong with me, I can't figure out why I'm in this planet, am I good for something? Did I do wrigt to anyone? I don't know and this is getting me crazy, I need clearness, GOD.

:S

Bang!
Explosions in my head that just won’t quit.
A train has crashed into the wall around my heart.
And left me the old me dead, obliterated.
Stop!
My breathing in the night when you’re not there.
The silence ringing through my ears,
And all I want to do is hear your voice.
But you’re not there.

Drawn together,
Pain has rushed through
Sleight of hand we,
We won’t go up in smoke.
Fates colliding,
Love undying.

Like the rising tide
Beating hearts grow but never die.
To simplify, I’ll stand by your side,
Close my eyes, hope will never die.

Boom!
Take away the pain of being me.
Soothe my soul, caress my heart and end my fear, all my bad memories,
Eradicated.
Bang!
Like gunshots heard against the silent night,
My love is stronger than these words; they’re stronger than the rest.
Unstoppable, unstoppable!

Drawn together,
Painter’s brushstroke,
Slight of hand we,
We won’t go up in smoke.
Fates colliding,
Love undying.

Oh, don't come following your fantasy,

Cause you might be surprised, she'll run right back inside.

Ya regresé, a este mundo de locos
A la tierra que un día yo quise dejar pero nunca olvidé.
El pantano del hambre, la miseria enjaulada.
La mentira que al fin aprendió a caminar por las calles del odio.

Y por eso volví del silencio mas puro a este ring de boxeo
Porque sólo al luchar sobrevive mi alma a su eterna condena
Porque un día lloré cuando supe cual es mi papel en la historia
¡Si me toca morir quiero que sea así el paraiso soñado!

...Y sólo verás energia flotando en un mar de luz que me invita a nadar...

Me quedan los sueños que nunca soñé
Me queda ese beso que nunca daré
Me quedan las cosas que sólo vos ves y por eso yo canto.
Me queda tatuada en la piel tu canción
Me queda pelear cada día de sol
Me queda el lugar que al final encontré
Donde sólo el que siente me podría ver
Y asi yo volveré.

Y allí sigue el valiente que amasija el ratón
La va polarizado tras un monitor porque "todo lo sabe".
El rincón más seguro de la inseguridad.
Es mejor ser el blanco de un pobre puñal que una inútil espina.

No pienso callar ante nada si todo es el juego de pocos
Que cambian el rumbo con solo apretar algún triste botón.
Ni pienso dejar de nombrar sanguijuelas que buscan la sangre
Para hacer negocios con mi corazón y venderte las sobras.

...Y en la soledad llorara la pureza de todas las cosas que nunca serán...
Y se mueren sin ver la verdad, todavía hay mucho que hablar...

I never thought that you would be the one to hold my heart
But you came around and you knocked me off the ground from the start

You put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go
You put your arms around me and I'm home

How many times will you let me change my mind and turn around
I can't decide if I'll let you save my life or if I'll drown

I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home

The world is coming down on me and I can't find a reason to be loved
I never wanna leave you but I can't make you bleed if I'm alone

You put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go
I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home

I tried my best to never let you in to see the truth
And I've never opened up
I've never truly loved 'till you put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go
I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home

Si no hay amor que no haya nada entonces, alma mía

No vas a regatear!

"I feel my face flush. I can't work out whether I'm upset or just embarrassed or angry because I'm embarrassed. I'm just sick of the feeling that I've done something really bad all the time, like I've inflicted weirdness once again on to someone who stupidly mistook me for a normal person. There's a tiny bit of me that knows really that I'm not that weird, that it's a bullshit bitch that people see me this way. But there's a much bigger part of me, which gets harder to ignore every time something like this happens, that tells me they're right. There must be some reason that people don't like me. I must be different, and not in a good way. I must make people feel bad. And that's totally my own fault."

I don't know what to believe in anymore, all this seems so false, so unreal. Sometimes I can't understand why people are so mean and I stand up and think: Is it me the problem? What am I doing wrong? Am I the bad person?. And I don't understand, I can't, even if I go round and round in my mind trying to figure it out... I think I'll never figure it out, I will die not knowing WHY all this is the way it is, with this doubt that's so big, so hard to live with, that eat you from the inside, slowly, and it hurts so much that sometimes I think that I can't deal with this anymore, I think about giving up and finaly die. Is that what you want, ah? You all want me to kill myself, you all want to make me suffer. 
But, I don't think that I'm that important to people, maybe it's all in my mind. I don't know, it's all so unclear, I want to shut my mind for once and be in peace, is this too much that I'm asking for?

You don't know what you've put me through

It's okay, I've forgiven you

But in some way, hope it fucks with you

Hope it fucks with you.

I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself
I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I'm movin' on

I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they're always the same
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong
I'm movin' on

I'm movin' on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone

I sold what I could and packed what I couldn't
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
I've loved like I should but lived like I shouldn't
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
I'm movin' on

I must go on no matter what.

Caresse sur l'océan
Porte l'oiseau si léger
Revenant des terres enneigées
Air éphémère de l'hiver
Au loin ton écho s'éloigne
Châteaux en Espagne

Vire au vent tournoie déploie tes ailes
Dans l'aube grise du levant
Trouve un chemin vers l'arc-en-ciel
Se découvrira le printemps

Caresse sur l'océan
Pose l'oiseau si léger
Sur la pierre d'une île immergée
Air éphémère de l'hiver
Enfin ton souffle s'éloigne
Loin dans les montagnes

Vire au vent tournoie déploie tes ailes
Dans l'aube grise du levant
Trouve un chemin vers l'arc-en-ciel
Se découvrira le printemps
Calme sur l'océan.

You won't break me, no matter how hard you try

You can't shake me down, I'm fucking bulletproof.

Tenés que ser fuerte Paloma, tenés que ser fuerte. La única persona que te puede sacar adelante sos vos misma, no te dejes pisar, ni por tu propia madre ni por nadie.

No voy a dejar que me afecte, pude encontrar la paz en mi mente una vez, tengo que poder hacerlo una vez más. No va a ser fácil, pero tengo que luchar. 
La Paloma que se daba por vencida ya no está más, soy una nueva persona. Voy a dejar que piense lo que quiera, cuando se dé cuenta que en realidad cambié se va a arrepentir, y yo no voy a estar más. Pensá que soy una hija de mierda, que no hago nada bien, que no valoro nada, está bien, ya no me interesa demostrarte nada, te vas a dar cuenta solita, total con que me vaya bien en el colegio, con que intente de llevarme lo mejor posible con vos y con que haga todo lo posible por ser una buena persona no te basta, no, tendría que ser perfecta para complacerte, pero como todos saben, no hay nadie perfecto. Yo sé que hice las cosas mal, pero estoy intentando arreglarlas, estoy intentando ser responsable lo más que puedo, pero me tienen que dar el tiempo y la paz que necesito para poder seguir adelante, de esta manera me la bajan por completo, pero como dije, no voy a dejar que me afecte, no puedo, ya no más.
Estas lágrimas van a ser las últimas, lo prometo.

You can't change how people treat you or what they say about you. All you can do is change how you react to it.

Bryson: Hi Liz. This is all a Sully's doing I guess. Look, I just want to explain what happend, this got blunt way out of proportion and It's completely my fault, it was a few dates...
Liz: STOP! What are you doing? You can't just talk about this stuff.
Bryson: Like, is that not why we are here?
Liz: We're only supposed to be here so Sully feels like he's fixed us and is not a failure. That's the only reason why I'm here. So can't we just do this and got this over with?
Bryson: So, this hole thing is just... a show to make Sully feel like everything's ok.
Liz: You didn't... know that?
Bryson: I had to be an idiot to think that we were actually gonna sit down and talk this through.
Liz: Well, I'm mot the one who-
Bryson: Cheated? No, you're not, but it's not fair how you completely shut me out and refuse to hear anything I had to say about it.
Liz: Why would I want to sit down and talk this out?
Bryson: All I want you to know is how much I care about you and how much more important that is than some stupid screw up. I mean, I tried so hard and do nothing but care about you and try to make things work, and you just run away from everything. I bet you don't even open the present I left for you. I guess I'm just realizing that I can't keep doing this. I can't keep waiting for you to come around and deal with things, 'cause I don't think that day's ever gonna come.

Al fin una alegría y una razón por la cual seguir ♥. 

Like I said, LV I'll be back.

Elle est partie loin d'ici
Parce qu'elle en avait envie,
Pas de parents, ni d'amis,
La clope au bec, elle s'enfuie
Le Big-Bacon elle vomit
Prête à croquer sa vie
Et faire le tri
En partant loin d'ici


Je suis partie loin d'ici 
Toute seule je me suis enfuie
Marre de mes amis,
De ma vie,
Dis moi qui je suis


Y'en a qui s'tire une balle
Elle est plus expérimentale,
La drogue qu'elle prend n'est pas mal
Mais elle n'a même pas cent balles
Fille giganorexique, elle a la dalle
Elle marche, marche et deviens pâle
Gravé sur sa pierre tombale,
Un gilet pare-balle


Je suis partie loin d' ici
Parce que j'en avais envie
Marre de mes amis,
De ma vie,
Dis Moi Qui Je Suis
Dis Moi Qui Je Suis !


Je crois qu'elle s'est tuée
Par terre elle s'est écroulée
Sa vie devant ses yeux a défilé
Elle s'est suicidééée


Je suis partie loin d' ici
Parce que j'en avais envie
Marre de mes amis,
De ma vie,
Dis Moi Qui Je Suis.

"Ser o no ser; esa es la cuestión. Si es más noble para el alma soportar las flechas y pedradas de la áspera fortuna o armarse contra un mar de adversidades y darles fin en el encuentro. Morir: dormir, nada más. Y si durmiendo terminaran las angustias y los mil ataques naturales herencia de la carne, sería una conclusión seriamente deseable. Morir, dormir: dormir, tal vez soñar. Sí, ese es el estorbo; pues qué podríamos soñar en nuestro sueño eterno ya libres del agobio terrenal, es una consideración que frena el juicio y da tan larga vida a la desgracia. Pues, ¿quién soportaría los azotes e injurias de este mundo, el desmán del tirano, la afrenta del soberbio, las penas del amor menospreciado, la tardanza de la ley, la arrogancia del cargo, los insultos que sufre la paciencia, pudiendo cerrar cuentas uno mismo con un simple puñal? ¿Quién lleva esas cargas, gimiendo y sudando bajo el peso de esta vida, si no es porque el temor al más allá, la tierra inexplorada de cuyas fronteras ningún viajero vuelve, detiene los sentidos y nos hace soportar los males que tenemos antes que huir hacia otros que ignoramos? La conciencia nos vuelve unos cobardes, el color natural de nuestro ánimo se mustia con el pálido matiz del pensamiento, y empresas de gran peso y entidad por tal motivo se desvían de su curso y ya no son acción."

-William Shakespeare; Hamlet .

I'm sorry, for the demon I've become,

 You should be sorry, for the angel you are not,

 I apologize, for the cruel things that I did,

 But I don't regret, one single word I said. 

When I reminisce ignorance was bliss, back in the days where the magic exist. Never be the same as it was, 'cuz the way it was just another day in the maze of a myth. Had a lot of fun living life on the run, never had a chance to pause to get a better glance. Everything was free and everything was fast, never even thought it wouldn't last. When you got the mind of a man in the middle life is just a big fat riddle, so figure it out. Always thinking that you know everything, little thing there is to know but you don't really know, ya know? It's like love, some people get it, for some it's just a glove that just never fitted, for me it's just a pain in the ass but I'm addicted to the taste of hopin' it could last. Another day, another night inside a lonely world. Another game, another fight inside a lonely world. Another wrong, another right inside a lonely world, such a lonely world, such a lonely world. Maybe I'm a target for people that are bitter, at least I can say that I've never been a quitter. No matter how hard I can try inside a lonely world, no one can hear me when I cry inside a lonely world, I'll never know the reasons why inside a lonely world, such a lonely world.

I'm a loser, yes it's true
Feels like I'm losing since I met you
Through the good times and the bad
Feels like I'm losing all I've ever had

Check it out

Back in the days there was ways
I was movin on guns all ablaze
Pullin on the past like I do
Still can't forgive all the abuse
That aint no way to rise from the crib
Still runnin hard from the shit
Why you wanna push my buttons?
Makin sure that I feel nothin?
Do you really think you need to remind me
Everytime every single second that I'm alive
Just to make yourself feel better? I don't think so
I just wanna do it all right
Find me better place in this life
We bring out the worst in each other
That aint no way to love one another

I just wanna be okay
There aint nothin wrong with that
I'm losing my life away
Losin myself and I want it back.

Baby, if I made you mad
for something I might have said,
Please, let's forget the past,
the future looks bright ahead,
Don't be cruel to a heart that's true. 

We've taken what's been given

And we throw it all away

It's hard to be forgiven

When there's nothing left to say

This time you're gonna get it. All the things you've done coming back to you. This time you're gonna feel it, you're conscience slowly suffocating you. In time, you will regret it. Say goodbye to all the things you've gotten used to, life will find a way to bring this karma to you.

It's been like this forever...
No more...
I hate my fucking life
I don't give a fuck
About all of your problems
I could give a rats ass
How your feeling today
Take your worldly advice
And shove it straight up your ass
Thanks for coming around
To fuck up my day
I try
Tolerate
Goodbye
Take me
Look at you, I can't
You don't see the whole picture
Take my bed of dirt
Cold and empty I'll stay
What's the point of trying
To stay above the surface
Take my life from me
Help me to ease my pain
Try to see the way around you
I can't find it
Try to take the path behind me
Can't rewind it
Stick your finger in my face and
I will break it
Leave me with an after taste

I used to look to you for direction

That was before I saw the deception

That was hidden behind your eyes

That was just your empty pride

Maricones, SON TODOS UNOS PUTOS MARICONES. No se bancan nada eh, hijos de puta, histéricos. Tanto necesitan que se esté pendiente de ustedes todo el tiempo? No son el centro del universo, métanlo en sus cabecitas.

Gone...

The time had finally come to kill the vein.
And I'm dropping down the dirt on your grave
It might hurt so bad, but I can't feel sad
Rid of a fool like you
The wrath has just begun 
The time has finally come
And it hurts so bad, and it drives me mad
Life with a blinded view of you.

It makes them disappear
It fills their life with fear 
When their future isn't clear
It makes them disappear

- Gone -

So the coward has up and run to be saved 
But with each step taken down, you sink in your grave 
It might hurt so bad, but I can't feel sad 
Rid of a fool like you

Get the fuck on down the road. 

Nothing is worth the sleep that I've lost

Apologies unacceptable now

A blistered revenge awaits in me 

This is fucking loveless

Hate 

Que ganas de, o romperle la cabeza a alguien, o pegarme un tiro. Ya no aguanto toda la bronca que tengo.

Ya no tengo ni ganas de vivir.

They laugh at me as I die.

I don't know what to do, I don't know anymore. Everybody hates me and I don't know why, I don't think that I am such a big piece of shit. I try to make things right, I try to be nice and good with people, but it seems it's not enough. Sometimes I think that everybody will be better without me, that I'm making their life a living hell, but when I sum up everything I've done, I don't find facts that let me being such a shit. Okay, there was little things, little fights, but is that enough to want to destroy me? Is that enough to leave me on my own? 

Once I think that my friends were the best friends in the world, they maked me happy everyday, they were the reason I wanted to live, and fight, and smile, but it seems that it was a simple ilusion.

PUUUUUUUUURAS MENTIRAS, PURAS MENTIRAS.

Ya me cansaron, no me voy a hacer más malasangre al pedo.