25 may 2011

24 may 2011

What have I done? I wish I could run away from this ship going under. Just trying to help, hurt everyone else, now I feel the weight of the world is on my shoulders.
What can you do when your good isn't good enough and all that you touch tumbles down? Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things, I just wanna fix it somehow. But how many times will it take, oh how many times will it take for me to get it right, to get it right.
Can I start again with my faith shaken, cause I can't go back and undo this. I just have to stay and face my mistakes but if I get stronger and wiser I'll get through this.
What can you do when your good isn't good enough and all that you touch tumbles down? Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things, I just wanna fix it somehow. But how many times will it take, oh how many times will it take for me to get it rightto get it right.
So I throw up my fist, throw a punch in the air and accept the truth, that sometimes life isn't fair. Yeah, I'll send out a wish, yeah, I'll send up a prayer, and finally someone will see how much I care.
What can you do when your good isn't good enough and all that you touch tumbles down? Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things, I just wanna fix it somehow. But how many times will it take, oh how many times will it take for me to get it rightto get it right.


I'm about to break some FUCKIN' OFF.

23 may 2011

No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes
And no one knows
What it's like to be hated
To be fated to telling only lies
Fuck,

I realize that no one really loves me.
Compassion is broken now, my will is eroded now, desire it is broken now, and it makes me feel ugly. I'm on my knees and burnin', my piss and moans are the fuel that sets my head on fire, so smell my soul, is burnin'. I'm broken, lookin' up I see the enemy and I have swallowed the poisons you feed me but I've survived on the poison you feed me. Leavin' me guilt fed, hatred fed, weakness fed, it makes me feel ugly. On my knees and burnin', my piss and moans are the fuel that sets my head on fireI'm dead inside. Shit adds up, shit adds up, shit adds up, shit adds up at the bottom. If I let you, you would make me destroy myself. In order to survive you, I must first survive myself. I can sink no further, and I cannot forgive you, there's no choice but to confront you, to engage you, to erase you. I've gone to great lengths to expand my threshold of pain, I will use my mistakes against you, there's no other choice. I'm shameless now, I'm nameless now, I'm nothing now, I'm no one now but my soul must be iron 'cause my fear is naked. I'm naked and fearless and my fear is naked. Dead inside, dead inside, dead inside. Nameless now, shameless now, nothing now, no one now. Shit adds up and you see me naked now. Fearless now, naked now. Shit adds up, it leaves me dead inside. Hatred keeps me alive, lonliness keeps me alive, weakness keeps me alive, guilt keeps me alive at the bottom.

22 may 2011

Graffiti decorations
Under the sky of dust
A constant wave of
tension 
On top of broken trust 
The lessons that you taught me 
I learned were never true 

Now I find myself in question 

They point the finger at me again 
Guilty by association 
You point the finger at me again 

I wanna run away 
Never say goodbye 
I wanna know the truth 
Instead of wondering why 
I wanna know the answers 
No more lies 
I wanna shut the door 
And open up my mind 

Paper bags and angry voices 
Under a sky of dust 
Another wave of tension 
Has more than filled me up 
All my talk of taking action 
These words were never true 

Y ya la tenía que cagar. Una nueva época de tortura comienza. Hasta nunca.

20 may 2011


I'm really high up!

18 may 2011


La hierba me ayuda,
a vivir la vida dura,
porque la amargura,
en mi camino se cruza.
marihuana cura, marihuana cura,
para malos momentos chico fuma. 

Imaginate que la vida es distinta,
imaginate en un mundo con risas,
imaginate que nadie te pisa,
imagina, sólo imagina.

Porque la realidad es muy distinta,
toda las personas van con malicia,
si todos fumasen sin semillas,
las guerras se acabarian,
y es que ...

La hierba me ayuda,
a vivir la vida dura,
porque la amargura,
en mi camino se cruza.
marihuana cura, marihuana cura,
para malos momentos chico fuma. 

No puedes culparme que fume hachis,
si cuesta tanto ser feliz,
chico es normal que me quiera reir,
si cuesta tanto ser feliz,
chico es normal que me quiera evadir,
si cuesta tanto ser feliz,
chico, eso no, no quiere decir,
que de mis problemas yo vaya a huir.

La hierba me ayuda,
a vivir la vida dura,
porque la amargura,
en mi camino se cruza.
marihuana cura, marihuana cura,
para malos momentos chico fuma. 
Fuma ganja por la mañana, fuma ganja toda la semana, fuma ganja por la mañana, fuma ganja toda la semana. Y es que nunca me retiro cuando lucho, solo me tumbo, cuando en mis pulmones entra el humo, solo me preguntas lo que fumo, mama.
This is just one of those lonely night, the good times gonna come.
I don't wanna' be hostile, I don't wanna' be dismal, and I don't wanna' rot in an apathetic existence. See, I wanna' believe you, and I wanted to trust you, and I wanna' have faith to put away the dagger. But you lie, cheat, and steal. And yet I tolerate you? Veil of virtue hung to hide your method while I smile and laugh and dance and sing your praise and glory. Shroud of virtue hung to mask your stigma as I smile and laugh and dance and sing your glory, while you lie, cheat, and steal. How can I tolerate you? Our guilt, our blame, I've been far too sympathetic. Our blood, our fault, I've been far too sympathetic. I am not innocent. You are not innocent. No one is innocent. You lie, cheat, and steal. How can I tolerate you? I will not tolerate you, I will go down beside you, I must go down beside you. No one is innocent. 

11 may 2011

And I sing songs about the past.
How I was raised and I was thrown out on my ass.
Cause I didn't care about going to school.

And I saw the look in her eyes.
My mother nearly cried when I had told her that I wanted to go,
Just to prove them wrong.

I've been smoking cigarettes since I was only fourthirteen.
Just to find an escape from this town that was so mean to me.

And I sing songs about my friends,
The way we grew up and all the loose ends we used to laugh.
Cause we didn't give a damn.
And I saw the look in my brother's eyes.
When I told him I was leaving,
He could help but despise me.
He's wanted out his whole life.

I've been smoking the green since I was merely sixfifteen.
Just to find an escape from this town that was so mean to me.

And I sing songs about the past.

I plea for relief.
This town won't recede all the things that I want, the things that I need.
And I'll beg and I'll beg.
I'm down on my knees.
Momma, oh momma, let me please leave.

I plea for relief.
This town won't recede all the things that I want, the things that I need.
And I'll beg.

All I ever wanted was love.

2 may 2011


No hay tema que me identifique más que este.
Something's missing in me, I felt it deep within me as lovers left me to bleed alone. Down here, love wasn't meant to be, it wasn't meant to be for me.