It makes me sick that people say that you're a selfish person and that you think only about yourself when you try to please them EVERY FUCKING TIME, and they don't even think, EVEN, in the things you would like to do, to receibe as response, EVEN IN THE THINGS YOU LIKE, nothing, nothing. It's fucking annoying.

Give yourself to me
For only then you will see
For I am the skies up above
Beneath and everything in between
These oceans which harbor your sadness
These rivers which carry your pain
Give yourself to me
For only then you will see
You will see

Give yourself to me

I was here before the beginning
I'll be here after the end
Search yourself, you'll believe
For only then you will see
You will see

Give yourself to me

Today I feel cold, like if I was dead.

I don't know why everytime I fall I can't get out of my mind the thought of making myself bleed, hurting me till I can't feel nothing else but phisycal pain. I know it's not right, but I can't get it out, the demons are free, and I don't want that.
The only solution to this is not feeling bad, but I can't if people close to me keep puhing me and stabbing my soul, I need them to help me be, I need my peace, please, I never did anything wrong on prupose and everytime I apologize and explain the why of my acts, so please, don't confuse me.
Sometimes when everything goes right I think: "God, life's good", but then when I fall, I can't understand anything, I can't... ABSOLUTELY NOTHING, I feel incapable of everything, I paralize and my mind can't think in anything but that, in the bullshit the world is and sometimes I start thinking if anyone even loves me, if is that a fantasie of mine or what. I feel like I was bring to this world just to be an useless maggot god for nothing else than being a piece of shit. I don't know, something's wrong with me, I can't figure out why I'm in this planet, am I good for something? Did I do wrigt to anyone? I don't know and this is getting me crazy, I need clearness, GOD.

:S