Antisocial.

It begins with a dark glowing ember...
Something black burning its way out of me
Searing the flesh
Pain is the only thing I feel, scars all I see...

Oh no the fire's burning my insides again!
What can I do to silence my desire tonight?
Flames consuming reason leaving only ashes left,
You will catch me regretting my decision
I can't keep telling myself what I want to hear 

I can't just close my eyes

I know that it's killing me
And it's poisoning the best of me
What I say, I don't want to believe
So let me tell you more, tell you more
About the lies I lead

That is how I choose to douse the flames in gasoline 

Broken dreams replace the blackout memories in my head
Wreckage from my past, it haunts me, shakes me to the bone
I know it's over but I can't go home tonight
But after this I feel as empty as the night before
Feel the pain and yet I'm still begging for more
Masochistic, nihilistic, urging backward thought
My life's a mess and I can't find a way to fix it
 

I can't keep telling myself what I want to hear  

I can't just close my eyes

I know that it's killing me
And it's poisoning the best of me
What I say, I don't want to believe
So let me tell you more, tell you more
About the lies I lead

Calling, calling out
The darkest reaches of my soul are riddled with self-doubt
Crawling, crawling out
My will to fight will more than suffice when others would lay down

It's only as dark as you make it!

I know that it's killing me
And it's poisoning the best of me
What I say, I don't want to believe
So let me tell you more, tell you more
About the lies I lead